Monday, October 25, 2010

Been Awhile!

Been awhile since I last posted.  I've been super busy: painting the cottage, replacing broken windows, tearing out a floor, rebuilding it, installing a new hot water heater, built a feral shelter for the cats, repaired mom's table stand, and a bunch of other fixer-upper stuff.  I'm looking forward to winter so I can kick back and take it easy.  : )


Anyway, as I promised Lo, here are some pics of the bathroom disaster:


This first two pics are the disaster that had to go.
At this point, I'd ripped the floor tiles out.
If you look closely, you'll see stints trying to hold the water heater up.  They didn't work.  I ended up putting 2x4 pieces between the heater and wall.  It worked pretty good.
The lovely floor after tearing out the toilet & hot water heater.  The board that ran along the bottom had been eaten out by termites.  That's what caused the whole thing to collapse.  The tough part was since the plywood had set in water for so long it had pretty much turned to thick glue.  All my tools were sticky as can be.
Better view of the mess.  The portable replacement floor I made is from scrap wood that was left when my brother remodeled his house and wood from my handicap ramp I took down. Yip that wheel you see in the upper right hand corner is my walker.  : )


The end result.  Mom had a lot of leftover linoleum from when she had her bathroom remodeled, so I put that down.  I still need to tear out the rest of the tiles and finish with the linoleum, but that can wait.  I'm in no hurry.  LOL


Anyway, I love my little tank.  It's 30 gallons.  I wanted a 20 gallon one, but no one had it, so this little baby is mine.


So, there you have it folks!  A week long project that made me rue the day I was born. LOL

Thursday, September 2, 2010

A wrench in the works

Carpenter ant tending treehopperImage by cotinis via Flickr
P90 has been on hold for the past several weeks.  I found I can't workout and work on the cottage at the same time.  P90 takes too much out of me.  bummer.  Anyway, the cottage is looking great.  This past week the termite dude came and killed off the termites and carpenter ants.  Can't even begin to tell you how great that one is to go in the kitchen and not see an army of ants lined up under the cat food bowl.

 A part from that, absolutely nothing is going on except a 2 day old headache.  Waiting for it to cool and mom's running me to Jim's to pick up a coke.  Coke is about the only thing that works awhile.
Tomorrow is pay day.  My entertainment budget is set for a beading loom, cardstock paper and pens.  I'm trying to make pop-up cards to mail to a friend every month.   She loves my cat toons, so I've spent part of the day coming up with weird and gross ideas.  (evil grin)  

Welp, that's it.  I've got some toons I'd like to post, but I'll do that when my head quits hurting.



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Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Of Werewolves and Cats

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There's a show on BBCA called "Being Human."  Awesome show about a vampire, ghost and werewolf who are all roommates.  To make a long story short, this past week the werewolf decided to put a cage in a room and take tranquilizers so that when he transforms he'll be in a safe place, won't kill anyone and sleep through the whole thing.  

It worked!  Well, at least until the next day when he discovered there were side-effects.  For no apparent reason, he would begin yelling out cuss words.  He'd try putting his hand over his mouth, but the stuff still flew.  At days end, he told his roommates that the werewolf in him felt deprived, cheated because it hadn't been allowed to do it's thing.

I feel a bit like that this week.  Since Bindi died, I haven't been able to really grieve.  It's impossible when people are constantly around you.  Thankfully, this morning was different.  Mom was finally back in school and Sklya had her first day of school out near the high school.  I had the farm to myself.  Just me and the cats.  Bliss.

So, I'm lying on the futon watching tv and one of the kittens hops up on the arm of the futon and begins cleaning itself, occasionally licking my head.  That's what  Bindi used to do.  He would lick and lick my head till that one spot was soaked.  He was so funny.  

Anyway, I broke down and cried.  It felt good to finally cry when a memory made me want to.  It felt good to finally get it out. 

While I was crying, I realised something important.  My heart, like George's werewolf, has felt deprived in not being able to do it's thing - grieve, but unlike George's werewolf, my body didn't respond with sudden outbursts of anger and hilarious outbursts of cussing.  My body responded in the only way it knows how - by sending my Dystonia into fits.  Once I was able to cry, with the freedom of knowing I wasn't going to be interrupted, my body began to feel better.     

Of course it wasn't just Bindi that was sending my body into chaos, there were a couple secondary things as well, but the main one was holding in emotions that needed to express themselves.  It's a lesson worth remembering.

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Monday, August 16, 2010

A Tribute to Bindi Sue

Bindi Sue
August 2006 - August 2010

Bindi has been missing since Friday.  He's never been gone this long and since Chubby passed on around the end of July, I thought I'd go ahead and write up Bindi's tribute.  If I'm lucky he'll show up after I post this.  I wrote Tiger's twice and he died two years later.  Hoping the same for this one.  : )

Anyway, Bindi & his siblings were born the month before Steve Irwin died.  I didn't have names for the kittens yet, so thinking Bindi was a girl (he was so hairy I couldn't tell), he was named after Bindi Sue Irwin, of whom was name after a crocodile.  And that's how Bindi became the boy name Sue.  (His sister was named Little Stevie.  Jeffie the Mighty was named after Jeff Corwin. Then there was the oddball, Pee Wee, named after a friend of the family.)
 
 

Bindi and Jeffie take a sip while out on our daily adventures.

Bindi loved to go on hiking trips.  Every time he saw me go near the gate to the lower pasture he dived under the fence and looked back to see if I was coming.  A number of chipmunks lost their lives on those trips.  He also loved the teepee.  
 
Bindi loved to curl up in the snow.
 

Then sit by the base heater to get warm.  Sadly, he kept singeing the hair off his tail and I had to ditch the base heater.


Bindi wishing everyone would get off his ironing board.

My beautiful BinBin.
Bindi out hiking.
Bindi asleep on my table.
This past year was pretty tough for Bindi.  November 2009, he managed to break his tail.  The vets said it's the worst break they had ever seen and were surprised Bindi lived.  It left his backside really tender and he'd cry out everytime one of the other cats touched him.  He also developed an allergy that led to his skin becoming scaley.  So, it's been a tough year.

The vet had told me before that if people want their pets to live - keep them indoors.  I tried for almost a full 4 years with Bindi, but he began to rebel.  Around May, I think, he finally got his way and I started letting him out at nite.  It was the only way to get any sleep, literally.  I hated doing it, but I hated not sleeping even more.

Kelly (vet) said the life expectancy of an outside animal is 1 - 3 years.  Bindi made it about 3.  It's really annoying how life goes.  Even among humans the good die and the jerks get to live long annoying lives.  Bindi was a sweetheart, and evil Kitty, jerky Spotty and that stupid black cat who keeps trying to beat up Jeffie live on. 
I miss you little buddy.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

A grumpy sunday

This has been a pretty crappy weekend and therefore read no further because I'm goina k'vetch.  Actually, it's been a crappy summer.  The heat and humidity have been so intense that I've had to stay in to keep my dystonia from giving me fits.  

I miss the outdoors, which is why I'm k'vetching.  I tried going outside about 15 minutes ago, but it's still 87 at 70% humidity.  bummer.  I wanted to sit outside so I could sketch and paint.  Not happening.

Getting my Power 90 workouts in has also been tough.  Even with the a/c running and the fan blowing on me, the heat is still intense.  Of course, part of that could also be menopause.  LOL  Anyway, right now - I'm living for the first snowfall.  : )

On the interesting side, yesterday I was reading, "The Country Diary of An Edwardian Lady."  The diary is from her entries in 1909.  For August she said that it had rained most of the month, but in England it was the sunniest on record.  Sunniest = driest.  I'm sure somewhere there was probably a little idiot yelling, "Global warming!!!" rather than accepting the reality that seasonal tortures come and go.  : )

Anyway, that's my k'vetch for the nite.  tootles!

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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Power 90 - Day 31: sculpting and it's still hot


Two degrees cooler than last nights workout.  This time it was only 80. : )  Anyway, BBCA is running a Primeval marathon today and I couldn't bring myself to shut it off and workout to the P90 dvd.  So, I went by the book and added some extra stuff and had a great time!  I even felt more exhausted than I do when I workout with the dvd.  Sweet!  : )  Once more, though, I really wished I had the P90X.  

Yes, I'll probably order it long before I'm finished with P90.  I was reading on twitter that some other folks made the switch before they finished P90 as well.  Would I recommend P90?  Yes, if you were totally out of shape, of which I'm not. That's a happy thought!  : )


 





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Power 90 - Day 30 update

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Day 30 was a tough workout.  It was freaking hot in the cottage - 82.  Even with the fan running on me and the a/c going I still had to take breaks inbetween rounds.  But!  I completed my mission and got it done.  Proud beyond words.  It's hard to workout in the heat.

Worked out to the Fat Burning dvd.  It's still my fave.  The regular Power 90 dvd's are a bit boring, but I think that's because of the dull backgrounds.  It rather sucks the life out of you.  Anyway, looking forward to day 31.


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Monday, August 9, 2010

Power 90 - the journey so far

Welp, did my second set of pics yesterday. Didn't see much difference, but the important thing I did notice is that I looked stronger in the way I stood.  I looked a bit wimpy in my first set of pics, so I'm really proud of that.

Last week was tough.  I was having major fatigue attacks and only got in about 3 days training.  I tried on the other days, but just didn't have the strength.  When you can barely do any yoga and simply fall to the mat and hope you can get up again, ROFL, it's time to take a break.  

Last nite, sculpting,  I didn't get to my workout until 10 pm.  It went great and I felt really strong, so missing those 3 days was no big deal.

Still wrestling with my diet.  Working hard this week to keep to the mission.

To keep myself motivated, I'm listening to Billy Blanks motivational CD's.  They're great when you need that extra push.  I really like Tony Horton, but Blanks still rocks when it comes to helping you work from the inside out.  That's the secret to succeeding and sometimes you need someone to push you in this area to keep you from just going through the motions.

Anyway, looking for this to be a great week!


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Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Power 90: Day 24 - Sculpting

Bicep curlImage by sportsandsocial via Flickr
Picked up an RF modulator today so I can finally use my dvd player in the living room.  Working out in my dark bedroom, on a hard floor with no a/c has been tough.  Anyway, tonite, for the first time since I started P90, I got to workout in my well lit living room, in a/c on a carpeted floor.  It made all the difference in the world.  : )

What surprised me most about my workout is that Rex stopped on me in Rutland and I had to push him about 1.7 miles home.  That's pushing a little over 200 pounds that far.  I was dead on my feet and made a dash for the shower when I got in to cool down.  So, that makes me all the more proud of tonite's workout.  : )

As for yesterday - impossible.   Dystonia fatigue ruled the day.  Bummer. But!  I tried twice, with two different dvd's trying to find one that I might still be able to workout with.  I failed on each, but that's cool. 
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Sunday, August 1, 2010

Power 90: Day 22 - Sculpting

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True confession, didn't really want to do my workout early this morning.  I had really enjoyed my day off over Shabbos and wanted to drag the break out another day.  But!  Then I did a measurements check and thought they stunk.  So!  I gave my workout everything I had.  : )

Sometimes all it takes is looking at the stats and deciding if you want to be the one who didn't do well with Power 90.  lol  I examined everything I'd been doing that was holding me back from better progress, and it all came down to my diet and not enough moving around during the day.  So, this week, the menus are planned out and new batteries are in the recumbent exercise bike so I can track my time.

Next Monday, is my next picture taking day.  I want to see some signs of improvement. 
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Tribute to Mrs. Rice

Mrs. Rice passed on today.  B"H, there was no suffering, just fall down and gone.  I'd like to go that way, or in my sleep.  Just quick and simple.  

Mrs. Rice was probably the coolest old lady you could meet.  She always had a big smile and always willing to lend a hand.  She always looked happy, even a couple years ago when she lost her oldest daughter, several months later her husband, several months later her oldest son and not too long after that - she lost a son-in-law.  She still gave you a big happy smile.

One of the things I remember growing up, is her home was always open and you never knew what to expect when you went it.  Like, you might find flour all over the kitchen (literally), where her girls were experimenting with cooking.  LOL  She never minded it and thought it was great.


She also raised great kids who were just like her - always a big smile no matter how bad things are and always willing to lend a hand.


I feel deeply for her daughter Rosemary right now.  She has not only lost her sister, brother, dad and her husband, in the past couple years but now her mom, who she moved in with after her own husband died.

Mrs. Rice admired her Rosemary.  When she was bringing me back with Conner from the vet, she said she couldn't get over how Rosemary could always look happy, always be laughing no matter how unhappy she was or how bad she hurt.  Well, Mrs Rice, she got it from you and that's one wonderful gift to pass on to your children.  

You'll be missed.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Power 90 Day 20 - aerobics!

Celebrating!  The ol' stroke-beaten, dystonia body has made it 3 weeks as of today.  Three weeks, 6 days a week!  A week from Monday I take my second set of pictures.  That's a scary thought.  LOL  Anyway, it went great and I felt terrific afterwards.  I think a lot has to do with not only my body slowly adjusting to the new schedule, but downing vitamins.  

I'm taking:
  • multi-vitamin
  • calcium/magnesium/D-3
  • CoQ10
  • B12
  • Vitamin C with rose hips
Anyway, it's helped me go from having to take a nap afterwards, to doing what I did today:
  • Ride scooter in town to deliver AVON & pick up litter.
  • Work in mom's garden, clearing & picking green beans & tomatoes.
  • Clearing my garden.
  • Hauling debris to the compost bin.
  • Sanitizing the litterbox.
  • Hand-washing my sleeping bag.
I'm impressed!  : )

Have a great weekend everyone!  See ya Sunday when we begin week 4 with sculpting!



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Thursday, July 29, 2010

adventuring with cats


I've been reading a book here lately called "Radical Simplicity."  The guy talks about simplifying our lives, solitude and enjoying nature.  The more I read, the more it intensified the longing to get back to Good Medicine Camp.

GMC is a spot on our hillside, not far up the ravine from the pond.  I found a rare flat spot on the right that would allow me to pitch some form of shelter and watch wildlife making their way down to the pond.  

With the aid of my boy scout handbook (1918) edition, I created various shelters with my big blue tarp and baling twine.  My favourite was my tepee!  You can see pictures of it here.  Jeffie, Bindi & Squeeky loved it.  They would play outside in the snow and run in to warm up by the fire.  They would either curl up on the evergreen bows I'd dragged up from the yard or crawl onto my lap and keep my legs warm. 

But, thanks to the coyote, wild dogs & the stupid neighbours dogs, we haven't made our daily trips in a couple years.  It's become too dangerous to take the cats.  Yeah, there's no limit to immediate escape routes, but I still worry when they go up there alone.  Anyway, the cats miss those times and so do I.  How do I know they miss it?  Because every time I go near the barn, the 3 of them run for the lower pasture and look back to see if I'm coming.
Original Hobbit Hole, Hobbiton location for LO...
So, now I'm looking at creating a hobbit hole on the front part of the hillside.  I wanted a hobbit hole a couple years ago, but I think now I can pull it off.  It's a great location and gives a full view of the valley.  The grass & weeds are too high now, but come Fall I should get to work on it.  Looking forward to posting pics when the work begins.  : )

And if that falls through - there's always another tepee.  : )

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Power 90: Day 19 - phase 3 sculpting

Moved up to phase 3 this morning just to see what it was like and how well I'd do.  I did great!  I think this is what I've been needing to do all along.  I wasn't out of shape when I began P90, but my joints and that irritating right knee kept me doing the first two phases for 18 days.  Phase 1 & 2 workouts will be perfect for those days that I just don't have it in me, so the dvds won't go on the shelf and get dusty.  : )  Super stoked to get P90X.  Two months to go and it's mine (iy"h)!  : )

As for my body on this one.  Blasting out the push ups naturally sent a bit of pain through me, but I think it was just a natural pain from the push ups themselves.  Same with blasting out the squats.  The difference came about a 45 minutes later when I was over at mom's.  My quads suddenly spazed out on me and I was holding on for dear life.  That pain I know very well!  : )

Anyway, one more workout for the week and that's tomorrow.  Using the fat burning vid again for cardio.  Next week I'll start using the phase 3 dvd aerobics

Until tomorrow- keep pushing play!


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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Power 90 - Day 18 - Sweat

This week I'm changing the routine a bit.  The regular cardio dvd is great, but not all that exciting. So, this week, I changed off and started using the "Power 90 Fat Burning System", which is an extra video in the set.  I love it!!!!  It's fun!  It's exciting!  It's just plan cool!  AND!  I get to use my medicine ball!

First of all, it's filmed in Hawaii, where the other video is in a plain room with a blue background & two assistants who look bored to death.  P90 FBS dvd has a lot of happy people in the background who are really going at it.  That's much more inspiring.  

Any who, I'm going to stick with that one for cardio for at least another week.  Then I'll use it once a week to break up the monotony.  : )

So, excellent sweat-to-death workout.  Can't wait till tomorrow.  I'm going to try the next level up on sculpting just to see how it goes.  

Today's bright side - I've lost 1/2" off my waist.  : )

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Power 90 - Day 15: circuit

A complete weight training workout can be perf...Image via Wikipedia
Last week was tough, between fatigue & a nasty sinus headache, I really struggled to get my workouts in.  If I wasn't so determined not to miss a single day, I would have surrendered during the headache.  But I'm proud of me for hanging in there and giving it the best I could.  : )


On to today!  Increased the dumbbell weights this week.  Using my 10lb db's.  Pushups are easier.  Right knee still giving me fits, but adjusted the lunges today to compensate and it did wonders.  Going back to using the bent exercise bike daily, it was the only thing strengthening that knee up.


Right elbow did pretty good today.  If I pay more attention to placement & form it will help.  Also adding my regular yoga dvd's to the routine a couple times a week and my P90 coach said I can use the other dvd that came with the set for a little mix up with aerobics.  Probably using that one tomorrow for the fun of it.  : )


All in all, excited to be starting week 3.  : )



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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Power 90: Day 11 - sweat

Workout done and gone!  It was great.  Kept a good pace so I didn't have to stop.  Didn't feel like working out when I first got up.  I was sore from the day before and tired.  I didn't sleep much last night.  Anyway, I'm proud of me for having at it.  Can't wait till the end of the 90 days to order P90X.  : )


Yesterday I finally signed up with the online program at beachbody.  It's pretty cool.  I also have a coach who contacted me last nite.  That was pretty neat.  

Anyway, lots to do today.  We're under flood watch and I need to get the ditch cleared so the water doesn't pick up the debris and cause a jam in the old batman tunnel.  : )  


Until tomorrow - keep hitting play!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Power 90: Day 10 - sculpting

Awesome day!  Lower back hurt really bad this morning, so I did 20 minutes of yoga zone power yoga before doing my P90 sculpt.  Really loosened the back and arms up.  I might continue doing yoga as a warm up to P90.  The warm up on the P90 program isn't really enough to loosen me up  to workout without problems.  Yoga is the perfect solution.


Found out last night that my heart rate monitor has left a nasty heat rash.  I was lathered in baby diaper rash ointment last nite.  LOL  The stuff works great.  Can't wait till I'm healed up.  The monitor is a must, so I've got to come up with a real solution to the problem.


Anyway, brilliant workout!  Proud of me!  : )

 
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Monday, July 19, 2010

Power 90 Day 9 - sweat

Today was awesome!  Felt great and strong.  Really surprised considering yesterday I didn't get to workout until about 7PM.  That workout, btw, was absolutely awful.  I had to hit pause a couple times and thought I'd bite the dust.  Gave it my best though.  

Today's excellent workout made up for the bad day.  Need to watch my diet more.  I'm not doing bad on it, but I could do better.



Friday, July 16, 2010

Power 90 Day 6

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So glad shabbos starts in under an hour.  It means I don't have to workout tomorrow. LOL  


Today's workout was a killer.  The last time I had to use the pause button was the first day of my adventure.  But today was tough.  I was tired, despite having gone to bed at a respectable time.  I did great through the punching, but that was about it.  I gave it my best though and really proud that I didn't give up.  I'm determined this is going to work.  The extra weight has to go so I can feel good again. 


Right knee felt a little weird.  Had to back off the right side kicks and not do as many.


Anyway, off to finish getting ready for Shabbos, and hopefully get a little cartooning in before lighting.




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Thursday, July 15, 2010

Power 90 - Day 5

push upsImage by sun dazed via Flickr
Tomorrow ends my first week of Power 90.  I have yet to lose a single pound, but so what.  Push-ups were much easier today, except for that one set where I couldn't push myself off the floor and I lay laughing because it reminded me of falling out of my wheelchair and not being able to get up. LOL  (long pause) I don't miss that thing.


Anyway, it's been a good week.  Tiring, but good.  My body is having to adjust to a schedule it's not fond of, but it's learning.  My right knee is a lot stronger than 5 days ago & I did lunges today with no problems.  B"H.


Looking forward to tomorrows aerobic workout.  But! I admit, I'm looking more forward to Shabbos.  : )
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Monday, July 12, 2010

Power 90 - Day 2

Power Yoga Video Class Extended Side Angle Pos...Image by myyogaonline via Flickr
Totally underestimated today's workout - and that's an understatement.  When I watched the vid earlier it didn't look like the workout was going to be that big a deal.  I watched and never winced once.  Where every time I watched a Tae Bo Boot Camp vid, I winced through the entire thing.  So, the Power 90 In-Home Boot Camp sweat day was going to be nothing.  Ha!  The joke was on me.


I lost track how many times I had to hit the pause button because I was going at it too hard.  Glad I was alone because it was beginning to get embarrassing.


Another shocker was it's the first time I had chest pains when working out.  I slowed down considerably after that.  Kinda freaked me out.  

Any who, really liked the power yoga part & of course the "martial arts" part.  Power yoga showed me how inflexible I've allowed myself to become again.  Martial arts?  Bang on.  : ) 

Gave myself a 10 for today's workout.  I gave it my best and learned a lot about the shape my body is in.  I've obviously not been pushing hard enough in my own made-up workouts with my: total gym, gazelle, medicine ball and kettlebells.  Wait! Correct that.  Aerobically I haven't been going at it hard enough or at least not hard enough to keep up with the sweat vid for Power 90.

Also, left out what I learned yesterday about eating.  Going back to the P90x chart to track my food, & eating 3 snacks/day, not 2.  It should make a big difference & I won't overeat.  : )


So, tomorrow's workout is back to sculpting.  Note to self:  Keep watching that form.  Slow down. Focus. Breathe.  : )




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Sunday, July 11, 2010

Power 90 - Let the torture begin....

Day 1


Today was Day 1 of my Power 90 workout.  Today was body sculpting.  My weakness is push-ups.  I hate them.  I liked them in high school when I could do any push-up variation you could ask for, but that was many moons ago.  : )  Anyway, I was able to keep up with everything but push-ups & my muscles started acting funny during triceps press, otherwise it was great.  : )


On a scale of 1 - 10, I'd give my diet a 4.  I wasn't really that bad, I just decided I'd punish myself with a low score because I didn't fully hold to the diet.  I kept snacking on dried bananas & dried cherries toward late afternoon.  I couldn't figure out why I was so hungry until I remembered I'd taken a b12 pill. That explained everything.  Tomorrow, I'll leave out the B12 & I'll score a 10!


Looking forward to day 2 - aerobics.   : )
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Friday, June 25, 2010

I don't care

Friendship / AmistadImage by victor_nuno via Flickr
One of the things about having a stroke is it does something interesting to your emotions.  You stop caring.  You lose your ability to feel emotionally.  You don't lose it completely, but it does a bloody good job of putting on the brakes. 

You can feel angry.  You can feel frustration.  You can feel confusion.  You can feel loneliness.  You can feel loss, but only in the sense of missing things from the past.  At least that's how I am and others that I know.


So what brought up this lastest ramble?  I got a phone call this morning and I was sharing some stuff that was necessary for her to understand so she would know how to help a particular person out.  Turns out she didn't believe the info was necessary and she was certain she could help the person out just fine without knowing the facts.


Have you ever tried helping someone without knowing the facts?  "Hi!  I want to help you, but don't tell me what the problem is."
  
 Can you imagine a doctor wanting to help a patient, but doesn't want to know what their symptoms are?  "Don't tell me anything!  I'll have you fixed up in no time." 



Anyway, she went on a vent to the point I almost hung up, but didn't.  I hung in there till I could change the conversation.  It worked and we were back on track. 


I realised again that we're not really friends.  Friends can talk to each other about stuff.  They can share without being judged.  You can talk things through with one another and find solutions.  You're a team.  

 I miss my friendships that were like that.  But with this one, I could take it or leave it.   If she had said she'll never call again, it would have been fine with me.  


Back to not being able to feel.   Past relationships  - I can feel.  But the present ones - I feel nothing.  It's easy to walk away.  It's easy to say I don't care.


I miss being able to feel.


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Friday, June 18, 2010

Jeffie's Plot Fails

The new kittens are getting creative in finding places to hang out.  This morning I found them up underneath my youngest nephew's truck.  I'd like to think that Jeffie was keeping an eye on them, since he was relaxing under the truck as well.  But, I think if truth be told - he talked them into climbing on the tires hoping the truck would move and run them over.  


Anyway, it wasn't long before Justin showed up.  I raced out the door to stop him from taking off.  It was a good thing too, because one of the bigger cats was taking his good old time coming out.  So, Jeffie nearly got his wish today.  I'm sure he's depressed, but he'll snap out of it and try again.  LOL

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Dogs make great cuss words!

More MissyImage by The Harry Philes via Flickr
I was reading someone's tweet on twitter today and they were trying to find a way to swear that wouldn't offend anyone. She chose the word "shittu". I got to thinking, "Hey! I hate dogs! Let's use one for a swear word!" And there you have it. It's not an original idea, but I don't care. I can now say the following without offending!

Holy shitsu, Batman!

I look like shitsu.

No shitsu!

That's bullshitsu.

I don't give a shitsu!

Oh shitsu, what have I stepped in now???

It's the first time I've ever been happy dogs exist.




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Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Because I feel like blabbering... muuhahahahaaa

A picture of my coldframeImage via Wikipedia

It's been a cool (cold actually) and busy day. Blackie has been attacking everyone like crazy, so I moved his winter feral home to the side of the cottage. It's now stuffed inside a medium size dog igloo with his heating pad. It's almost as warm in there as it is in the cottage.

From there, I started renovating the dog pen where my nephew kept his annoying dog for awhile. I'm turning it into a greenhouse (GH from here out). It was the only solution I could come up with that would keep the cats out of the plants when I put them out to harden.

It's also going to be my herb garden. Yip! The only way to keep the cats from digging up the plants and keep Jeffie from spraying them. Some will go in raised beds and the others in pots. If there's room I'd like to put in a cold frame. BTW, the cold frame pic above isn't mine. I just put it up for those who don't know what a cold frame looks like.

Next, was transfer all the stuff I'll be using in the GH, pots, trays, etc. from the side of the cottage to their new home.

In between I tinkered with the compost pile, straightened up my tools in the barn and got my youngest nephew to get the hand plow down from the side of the old shed and put it in the barn, and put a new pile of hay over the cats garden. (hand plow is identical to mine, but the pic came from elsewhere.)

Wish I'd had thought of filming the cat fights over the catnip I planted for them last year. They were wild! LOL

Weather permitting, I'll try to get some pics of my little projects tomorrow. : )

Outa here for the night!


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